Category Archives: Health

If I Don’t Get Lost Today No One Will Search For Me Tomorrow: Addiction Beckons

If I Don’t Get Lost Today No One Will Search For Me Tomorrow: Addiction Beckons

I was lost when I met Anita.

My father’s battle with cancer had captured, shadowed and imprisoned my youth. Three-years before I was flying high from high school graduation: vibrant, attractive, lean, with a flare for bodybuilding and boxing and desperate to leave home when Dad, literally, collapsed under the prognostic-doom of his cancer diagnosis. Three-years later I was fat, emotionally defeated and on a three-day train trip across Canada to attend college. For three days and nights I sat and stared out a train window at the desperate and the lonely.Read More

Is it the Food that I Love or the Self that I Hate?

Is it the Food that I Love or the Self that I Hate?

For me it was not an uncontrollable love of food that made me fat. Truthfully, it was the only time in my life when I hated food. But at 21 I was fat and the fatter I got the more I ate. Eating was a divergence from the helplessness, the longing I felt after three-years of watching my father fade away and die. Food filled the emptiness of living as if my life was controlled by an ancient human survival mechanism that originated when hunting and gathering was the essence of life and a full stomach meant success. As if satisfying that primal urge was connected to an emotional peace as the cancer that ate my father devoured his small family’s world.

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Deception is at it’s Finest When Expressed as Well-Aged Fact

Deception is at it’s Finest When Expressed as Well-Aged Fact

Deception reigns. Fiction is at it’s finest when expressed as well-aged fact, when the burden of wisdom is a feeling carved constantly by understanding that advice is more often driven by wishes than by fact. As the wise man who quickly becomes the fool if he talks in a way that is different to you: Different than you wish is the way that is true. Tragically, when wisdom is distorted by wishes you will never find the truth, and nowhere is fact more drowned by fiction than by diets programmed for weight loss.Read More

Striving for Personal Splendor in a World Saturated by Salt and Sugar

Striving for Personal Splendor in a World Saturated by Salt and Sugar

Striving for personal splendor is the essence of humanity: a reach that should forever hover just beyond our grasp. To advance as a species we must constantly want more, but in this inherent struggle to be at the top far too many individuals flounder in obscurity. Our hunger remains but our desires gradually become less refined, more and more impure until our minds, spirits and bodies are satisfied by junk. We allow our physical beings to be handfed by profit mongers eager to exploit our loss of self. Our souls wander aimlessly in a desperate search to see beyond the confines of archaic creeds designed to pacify insignificance.Read More

Restaging The Never Aging: The Lifelong Sexual Game

Restaging The Never Aging: The Lifelong Sexual Game

Shadows of Shame
Orgasm was there: Everywhere. As burgeoning adults, whenever we had a relatively private corner, it was waiting. Coming took less time than going back to the reality of Read More

A Rolling Fog on a Fading Sea

A Rolling Fog on a Fading Sea

One word creates feelings that crawl up my spine like a rolling fog on a fading sea. Like a thick sodden mist it leaves nothing to see.

It floods memories of mind with the moods of childhood, back to those feelings that struggled to understand that to truly exist, to truly be me I must learn to be free.

Free to stand face to face with the wind that blows the fog off the seas, free to stand proud and not bow to my fears on weak bended knees.Read More

Inside the Confessional

Inside the Confessional

Let us ramble on with wintery thoughts of deflecting guilt: The unforgiving force of guilt that hides the mind’s reality inside promise of change. “Promise that starting Monday we keep the junk to weekends.”Read More

January Resolutions: When Dreams Escape Reality

January Resolutions: When Dreams Escape Reality

“Always strive to be life’s greatest indulger:  A rebel to the phrase, Moderation”. This is a New Year motto to live by.  It came to me from somewhere deep inside a wish to forever reach for pleasure. I will live by it for all of 2013. To be honest, I have always strived to liveRead MoreRead More

The Dirt on Diets: Part 3

The Dirt on Diets: Part 3

Our diet fuels the flames of life; it is not an imposed deflection of desires. We are like you, if you are inclined to extravagance: Indulgers. The luxury of our life defines itself with food and sex. To explore both to their highest expression requires meticulous use of the human-unique part of us all thatRead MoreRead More

When I Diet my Sex Drive Vanishes

When I diet my sex drive vanishes. Replacing food with sex, as you suggest, does not work for me. Sherry    Read More