Category Archives: Diet

Edging on Appetite’s Ecstasy

Edging on Appetite’s Ecstasy

Dance the rim of the volcano for as long you can before you plunge to the flames and joy melts into heavenly ash

Edging on orgasmic ecstasy is a talent I honed as a child reveling in the mystical world of puberty as I lounged in the shade of an apple tree. Towering high on the hills above their home the topmost trees of my grandparent’s apple orchard provided a lonely, secluded place for a 12-year-old boy. Row after row of huge apple trees formed tunnels of green that shaded me from the burning summer sun and prying eyes. Read More

Is it the Food that I Love or the Self that I Hate?

Is it the Food that I Love or the Self that I Hate?

For me it was not an uncontrollable love of food that made me fat. Truthfully, it was the only time in my life when I hated food. But at 21 I was fat and the fatter I got the more I ate. Eating was a divergence from the helplessness, the longing I felt after three-years of watching my father fade away and die. Food filled the emptiness of living as if my life was controlled by an ancient human survival mechanism that originated when hunting and gathering was the essence of life and a full stomach meant success. As if satisfying that primal urge was connected to an emotional peace as the cancer that ate my father devoured his small family’s world.

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